Jollie Time!

So guess what? I am going away very soon (Well Friday)and I’m yet to be overly excited. I suppose its like Christmas when you don’t really get excited until the night before or just when you get on the plane. To be honest I think I'm more anxious then excited. Everyone I have spoken to have been like 'Ohh the Turkish men will be all over you', ‘ The Turkish men are all slimy’ I don't want be harassed while I’m sipping into my Pina Calada, no thank you!

Luckily, though my best friend who I’m going on holiday with kindly equipped me with a set of Nerf guns for my birthday so if any mischief goes down they will seriously regret it. I do hope the airport security don’t think I’m carrying a lethal weapon in my suitcase, with my 007 Nerf guns that would be rather embarrassing having those confiscated. (Bridget Jones moment right there me thinks... British Embassy anyone? ) It’s only a day away and I’ve packed up my gear and I would say 80% ready to go. And even though I do act like I'm not excited I am at least grateful to have the chance to go away with my bestie and do something a bit more spontaneous. After all this holiday was only booked 30 days ago, talk about last minute! By the way who ever does bother to read these blogs I will keep you updated on my jollies or at least attempt to. Sort of a travel diary of the goings on in Turkey (gobble, gobble... sorry) That's if I get bored but chances are I'll have an amazing time and do loads of cool things and then I will update you guys once I’m back in Blighty (and make you all jealous mwahahaha).

So of course I’ve packed the Nerf guns but also I have packed some other essentials, more related to beauty shall we say. Don't worry guys even if I wanted to do a beauty blog which I sort of do, I simply don't have the funds to keep reviewing expensive beauty product's(Hug me I'm poor). However due to a recent birthday I actually have a few make up items that shall we say are, as I put it very splurge-tastic so here goes.

The first thing is the Benefit Boing concealer, number one shade. I kinda swear by this stuff and covers all (not kidding) blemishes. I do have darker skin than the number one shade but I find it also works well as a highlighter. This brings onto high beam, also by benefit again love this but only where it on occasion as I find it has a tendency to make you look too shiny in places but great for a night out. For my mascara I have my They're real Benefit Mascara, which is simply awesome but be careful don't over load the mascara too much as you can end up looking like you have a spider crawling out of your eye. Less is more with that one. Also I Have a more cheaper mascara which is Collection's Longer Lashes in Brown/black. The reason I've brought it was its waterproof and of course we've all been there when we've jumped into the pool and got out to panda eyes. Well, not this year bloggers, I am prepared for this plunge! Anyways another item I have is the Real Techniques brush which I use to apply my Match Perfection foundation. Its a staple in my make-up bag and probably my favourite brush ever. Brilliant coverage and it honestly makes you look flawless, would definitely recommend to anyone. Its a close runner against my Nerf gun as the most favourite thing I have in my suit case.

So yeah that was my little beauty snippet. The observant ones will have noticed that I do I have other items in there and all I equally swear by, especially my Hoola Benefit bronzer as I will be a pastey bugger for the first few days. Hope you enjoyed my post today and tomorrow will be my last post in dreary,cold England until I head off to sunny Turkey (Okay, admittedly I'm getting excited now).

Please post any comments below and any advice on how I get myself excited for holiday and I would love to know what do you look forward to when you go away and what are your holiday essentials that you swear by?

27th May 2014- New beginnings

Hello bloggersphere.
Yanno when you have a clear out of all your things from the past that make you both cringe/cry and also laugh. Well, I started on my room for example I noticed the chavtastic old Paul's boutiques bags I used to lug around as I child which made me laugh, the old photos of past best friends which made me sort of sad  and the old diaries I used to keep made me cringe my socks off. So once finishing the room I thought hmm what else can I reminisce about? Oh yeah... This blog was one of those 'projects' shall we say that I had when I was younger. Looking back on my previous blog's make me both laugh at my naivety but also make me reflect on the events that occurred in my younger life and how insignificant they are now. For example OMG the guy hasn't called me he doesn't love me! I could just imagine the amount of people looking at my blog and just scoffing at this little girl thinking she has so little experience of life and boys but don't worry scoffers I also share the same view now. I will however stick up for the fact that okay yes I was acting  like I knew everything but I was only a sixteen year old girl and I was just starting to learn about these things (and of course a sixteen year old girl does know about everything.. we've all been there). I do understand you older girlie's are laughing at my immaturity because now being a older girlie I am embarrassed slightly for myself. Despite growing up I still slightly haven't matured mentally and actually still know zilch about my self and of men. (Getting the tub of Ben and Jerry's out as I type...)

I will give it to myself even though I was so cringey beyond belief I was hilarious both purposely and accidentally. Its like when you look at old status' you made when you were younger, the phrase 'What was I thinking?' comes to mind... alot.

I got so frustrated with boys that now I've just simply gave up, I don't have a boyfriend and in fact haven't had one ever since (Like to add not because i spend all day here nono!... mainly Netflix and instagram to blame). So tragic I know but for some reason I'm not interested, I honestly couldn't care less. Some times I think, maybe it would be nice to have company and I should be probably be wanting to have a boyfriend. But honestly I cant be bothered. To summarise the things I cared about previously seem menial now so you're probably wondering okay so you don't care about boys blah blah blah, 'What do you  care about? ' Good question. 'Why thank you!' My career, wanting money and living my life. Very general I know but so true. That's what I care about I really don't see the obsession these days with wanting to settle down so young and have a family without creating there own financial security, own home, or reaching to there potential. I just want money and then I feel family will be a after thought, an addition if you will to my life.

So to conclude I'm back to give a insight in the life of Annie and just to give a update on my goings on in daily life (Really selling it to you I know.) Its time to realign my priorities of life and boys you're taking a back seat for now. Time to grown up. Career and success should be the forefront of my mind  (okay sometimes boys... I'm a 19 year girl what do you expect?)  So here goes first post in a while let me know what you think. :)

20th August- Hasnt it been ages?!

Okay I haven't done a blog in ages and its the usual excuses been on holiday again, looking for a job because im absolutely skint and.. wait no that's it. I'm not gonna go around saying that I have such an amazing life that i couldn't possibly have the time to be on my laptop because looking back on it its hardly a fairy tale. I have recently discovered that i am very VERY boring person do you know what did today? It was something on the lines of watch telly but to be honest it was come dine with me which is amazing , watched sex and the city which again AMAZING and then walked the dog.. not so amazing but got abit of exercise in. I don't even see the point in you guys reading this blog because summer for me = nothing. Ever since my love problem with Joe i have tried to get out of the house and meet people... but with no money, no car, no nothing im left again doing nothing. Trust me meeting people is harder than it seems really hard. Its like i was born into this world with out a chance to find a boy remotely interested in me.. okay from a guys point of view i am a tad easy on the eye (big headed much?) My body isn't that great but its not obesely fat either could maybe give her ago.. and then i speak and its a turn off. I mean no not my voice, my voice is not the problem i don't sound like a strangled cat if that's what your thinking... Its the words that decide to come out of my mouth so uncalled for and soo inappropriate.. Okay maybe a slight exaggeration not completely inappropriate Its not like im saying 'hey fiend, im going to take you to my dungeon and suck your blood!'' No. Not that inappropriate but the sort of things you say which sound good at first in your mind and then later on whilst your in bed thinking over the nights events and you have that gut feeling mixed between humiliation and regret that if you had said those words completely different would you ended up in someone else's bed tonight not in yours... May I add eating Ben and Jerry's and watching 90210. But then i think to my self what if? What if i did say these words that matched to his 'criteria' and this guy fell head over heels for me, would i be happy knowing that im living a lie?  Clueless is the word.

26th July- Is this it?

So im coming to a conclusion NO man will treat me like im a decent girl or like me for who i am.. harsh on my self buts its so true. Ive been looking back on the guys i have been seeing or have gone in a relationship with and ive never had a real connection with them or felt like this will go somewhere. Your probably thinking your 16! You have so long to figure out your relationships and what guy 'floats your boat' but in this present moment in time i feel so far away from finding that guy.

Im gonna be one of those old crazy cat lady's who has no one great. I don't ask for much all i want is someone who is kind, maybe reasonably good looking and talkative that's it! Im not asking for a miracle! Every guy i seemed to be interested in there not interested in me but yet they text me and they want to see me.. confused? I definitely  am. I would love for guys to be a little bit more straight up about there feelings so you don't get ditched knowing that you were lead on and tricked with emotion argh boys.

It does look like all i do i whine and moan about boys. But i am i teenage girl lets not forget. At the moment im kinda stuck in limbo im waiting for summer to be over so i can start 6th form, maybe that's a new start for me also new meat! Very sexist.. Also im waiting for my results to come through and if i don't get five C's then there will be no meat for me.. crap. I never felt so insanely bored in my life if i don't turn into a crazy old cat lady later in life im definitely gonna turn into one this summer if i don't do something!

24rd July- Is this to slow for you? Yes!

Okay.. ive got one for you why is so hard to find a guy.. or girl to want to text you daily or want to meet up with you daily because im sorry but isn't it pretty basic of a relationship to yanno put a tiny bit of effort in even if you going abit slow. Don't you hate when a guy is like 'i want to take things slow' i swear that is just code for 'cannot be bothered to make any effort with you' I mean seriously i cannot stand it when a guy wants to take it SLOW but then cops off with a another girl and then does it all in one in about 3 months.. its like come on your not fooling anyone...

I know i probably rant alot about commitment and effort about guys or in some cases girls but if you dont make any effort in your relationship its just a joke. Like this guy im seeing no effort i just feel empty and i feel like its all my fault that he dosent bother because im not worth his time.. but seriously dont be fooled ITS NOT YOU ITS ALL HIM this rule applys for any person, any sex. So don't get caught up in this self destruction of feeling shit because hes not bothering because its not you. Also some people who are reading my blog some may be recovering from a broken heart.. so please read this its abit blunt but its so true of what you need to do.. You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analysing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened- or you could just leave the pieces on the floor and move on. This quote made me realise that okay even tho the moments you had with someone was great! amazing!.. but seriously was it all that? Did you count the moments when you felt depressed and so angry? One way or another you ended up alone feeling shit so something in that relationship went wrong, some where...

22nd July- Looking back

Okay your probably shocked by this but yes i am writing two blogs in one day, I feel like a kid with a new toy but i know i want get bored of this to easily. Well since im starting to write about my life now and from this point voice my stories that happen in the 'now' im going to be a little outrageous and talk about my holiday that i had with my best friends a few weeks ago. I know what your thinking... i used to write about my holiday in primary school this will not be interesting BUT in my case when you wrote about it in primary school. It was about silly things like what your brought for example a t-shirt saying I <3 New York and how it was the best day of your life because you got to go to a fair ground, the usual crap. Well ill try and not make it sound NOT like a snotty nosed kid wrote it deal? Plus i have turned down a house party to fill you in now don't tell me that's not commitment because if its not i really don't know what is..

Okay so i went to Ibiza with my closest friends Lydia, Amy and Amelia and of course the much loved Annette Lydias mom. We thought best to have a grown-up to keep us in line. It was supposed to be a no fall-out holiday but with four teenage girls there we all knew that wasn't going to be the case. The night before we went it really sunk in that we were going, we all felt the same not excited at first but i suppose its like Christmas really don't feel its happening until the night before and then you cant sleep. A few days before it was prom which ill talk about in another blog but from that day we had spray tans done and our nails done so we weren't going to look like snowman's when we arrived which was one good thing. We left in the afternoon   to arrive at the airport it was funny because even though it was around 1 o'clock we all still looked like we had just woken up.. actually scratch that, that was just me so tragic. We went to departures and i was full of excitement we were nearly there it felt so close. I remembered being on the plane falling asleep and waking up later and looking through to the window and seeing this small island i couldn't wait to be on it. Im not gonna be a bitch and say all the bad things that happened on the holiday and all the fall outs because lets face it, even though secretly you want to here it, its not what a good friend does. Even though my friends don't see this there's still a sense of guilt, but all i can say is mistakes were made and were resolved some more than others but i have to say despite that, it was the best time of my life. We went to the most amazing clubs and saw Wretch 32 live. Lydia and Amelia were with guys but even if we weren't all in a group i was still with Amy dancing away. We also went to El Paradise which was also spectacular it was a complete and utter world from back at home. Britain starts at 7 in the morning till 10 at night and that's it. But Ibiza starts at 12 and ends till morning its insane but strangely even if your deprived of sleep you still don't feel tired. You have a constant buzz and thrill all through the day and night. Until you get home you feel the damage... We became regulars, well for a week at this bar called The Pink Panther, they were so attentive and you just felt safe there plus the cocktails were gorgeous! One night we thought we should lay off the cocktails and Take Annette out for a meal because if it wasn't for her we wouldn't of had this amazing holiday end of. We all dressed up in our maxi dresses and everyone looked beautiful, even though we didn't go crazy and get stupidly hammered that night it was my favorite by far. The funniest moment of the holiday had to be when we got drove to a club by a trannie yes you heard me and full blown, boobs and all trannie, it was brilliant. Loved every moment of this holiday and will enjoy plenty more with my closest friends. Here are some photos from one crazy but amazing week in ibiza :)

Hes just not that into you?

Hey guys kinda new to this but i wanted to start blogging seeing as its summer holiday and as predicted bored as ever.. not surprised though. My name is Annie and basically i want to share my life to you in a paragraph with daily updates.. so interesting i know but ill try and talk about topic that may confuse you as much as me. Just thought i would write a blog not really having a good day at the moment, lets just say im in a sticky situation with a guy I mean okay its going OK wouldn't say anything special, we've been seeing each other for about lets just say 3 weeks? yeah i know having doubts already.. abit weird? but seriously how can i not have doubts when the guy refuses to text me daily and dosent seem to want to meet up i mean am i wasting my time here? many of friends think i am i can see why but when im with him it just feels right yanno. I cant bring myself to just say to him its not working because.. i just cant. 

I always never give up but right now im pass caring im in a really shitty mood i have exams next week to be honest i couldnt give a shit about this situation any more but then i do. When youve been single for this long and this opportunity comes you feel you have to take it no matter what and even though it feels shit i keep reasurring myself its gonna get better. But right im not feeling any evidence of it 'getting better'. Maybe i should quit while im ahead, maybe this is just my luck... right first blog kinda interesting to spill my life story in a paragraph.. Reply, comment :)