26th July- Is this it?

So im coming to a conclusion NO man will treat me like im a decent girl or like me for who i am.. harsh on my self buts its so true. Ive been looking back on the guys i have been seeing or have gone in a relationship with and ive never had a real connection with them or felt like this will go somewhere. Your probably thinking your 16! You have so long to figure out your relationships and what guy 'floats your boat' but in this present moment in time i feel so far away from finding that guy.

Im gonna be one of those old crazy cat lady's who has no one great. I don't ask for much all i want is someone who is kind, maybe reasonably good looking and talkative that's it! Im not asking for a miracle! Every guy i seemed to be interested in there not interested in me but yet they text me and they want to see me.. confused? I definitely  am. I would love for guys to be a little bit more straight up about there feelings so you don't get ditched knowing that you were lead on and tricked with emotion argh boys.

It does look like all i do i whine and moan about boys. But i am i teenage girl lets not forget. At the moment im kinda stuck in limbo im waiting for summer to be over so i can start 6th form, maybe that's a new start for me also new meat! Very sexist.. Also im waiting for my results to come through and if i don't get five C's then there will be no meat for me.. crap. I never felt so insanely bored in my life if i don't turn into a crazy old cat lady later in life im definitely gonna turn into one this summer if i don't do something!

24rd July- Is this to slow for you? Yes!

Okay.. ive got one for you why is so hard to find a guy.. or girl to want to text you daily or want to meet up with you daily because im sorry but isn't it pretty basic of a relationship to yanno put a tiny bit of effort in even if you going abit slow. Don't you hate when a guy is like 'i want to take things slow' i swear that is just code for 'cannot be bothered to make any effort with you' I mean seriously i cannot stand it when a guy wants to take it SLOW but then cops off with a another girl and then does it all in one in about 3 months.. its like come on your not fooling anyone...

I know i probably rant alot about commitment and effort about guys or in some cases girls but if you dont make any effort in your relationship its just a joke. Like this guy im seeing no effort i just feel empty and i feel like its all my fault that he dosent bother because im not worth his time.. but seriously dont be fooled ITS NOT YOU ITS ALL HIM this rule applys for any person, any sex. So don't get caught up in this self destruction of feeling shit because hes not bothering because its not you. Also some people who are reading my blog some may be recovering from a broken heart.. so please read this its abit blunt but its so true of what you need to do.. You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analysing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened- or you could just leave the pieces on the floor and move on. This quote made me realise that okay even tho the moments you had with someone was great! amazing!.. but seriously was it all that? Did you count the moments when you felt depressed and so angry? One way or another you ended up alone feeling shit so something in that relationship went wrong, some where...

22nd July- Looking back

Okay your probably shocked by this but yes i am writing two blogs in one day, I feel like a kid with a new toy but i know i want get bored of this to easily. Well since im starting to write about my life now and from this point voice my stories that happen in the 'now' im going to be a little outrageous and talk about my holiday that i had with my best friends a few weeks ago. I know what your thinking... i used to write about my holiday in primary school this will not be interesting BUT in my case when you wrote about it in primary school. It was about silly things like what your brought for example a t-shirt saying I <3 New York and how it was the best day of your life because you got to go to a fair ground, the usual crap. Well ill try and not make it sound NOT like a snotty nosed kid wrote it deal? Plus i have turned down a house party to fill you in now don't tell me that's not commitment because if its not i really don't know what is..

Okay so i went to Ibiza with my closest friends Lydia, Amy and Amelia and of course the much loved Annette Lydias mom. We thought best to have a grown-up to keep us in line. It was supposed to be a no fall-out holiday but with four teenage girls there we all knew that wasn't going to be the case. The night before we went it really sunk in that we were going, we all felt the same not excited at first but i suppose its like Christmas really don't feel its happening until the night before and then you cant sleep. A few days before it was prom which ill talk about in another blog but from that day we had spray tans done and our nails done so we weren't going to look like snowman's when we arrived which was one good thing. We left in the afternoon   to arrive at the airport it was funny because even though it was around 1 o'clock we all still looked like we had just woken up.. actually scratch that, that was just me so tragic. We went to departures and i was full of excitement we were nearly there it felt so close. I remembered being on the plane falling asleep and waking up later and looking through to the window and seeing this small island i couldn't wait to be on it. Im not gonna be a bitch and say all the bad things that happened on the holiday and all the fall outs because lets face it, even though secretly you want to here it, its not what a good friend does. Even though my friends don't see this there's still a sense of guilt, but all i can say is mistakes were made and were resolved some more than others but i have to say despite that, it was the best time of my life. We went to the most amazing clubs and saw Wretch 32 live. Lydia and Amelia were with guys but even if we weren't all in a group i was still with Amy dancing away. We also went to El Paradise which was also spectacular it was a complete and utter world from back at home. Britain starts at 7 in the morning till 10 at night and that's it. But Ibiza starts at 12 and ends till morning its insane but strangely even if your deprived of sleep you still don't feel tired. You have a constant buzz and thrill all through the day and night. Until you get home you feel the damage... We became regulars, well for a week at this bar called The Pink Panther, they were so attentive and you just felt safe there plus the cocktails were gorgeous! One night we thought we should lay off the cocktails and Take Annette out for a meal because if it wasn't for her we wouldn't of had this amazing holiday end of. We all dressed up in our maxi dresses and everyone looked beautiful, even though we didn't go crazy and get stupidly hammered that night it was my favorite by far. The funniest moment of the holiday had to be when we got drove to a club by a trannie yes you heard me and full blown, boobs and all trannie, it was brilliant. Loved every moment of this holiday and will enjoy plenty more with my closest friends. Here are some photos from one crazy but amazing week in ibiza :)

Hes just not that into you?

Hey guys kinda new to this but i wanted to start blogging seeing as its summer holiday and as predicted bored as ever.. not surprised though. My name is Annie and basically i want to share my life to you in a paragraph with daily updates.. so interesting i know but ill try and talk about topic that may confuse you as much as me. Just thought i would write a blog not really having a good day at the moment, lets just say im in a sticky situation with a guy I mean okay its going OK wouldn't say anything special, we've been seeing each other for about lets just say 3 weeks? yeah i know having doubts already.. abit weird? but seriously how can i not have doubts when the guy refuses to text me daily and dosent seem to want to meet up i mean am i wasting my time here? many of friends think i am i can see why but when im with him it just feels right yanno. I cant bring myself to just say to him its not working because.. i just cant. 

I always never give up but right now im pass caring im in a really shitty mood i have exams next week to be honest i couldnt give a shit about this situation any more but then i do. When youve been single for this long and this opportunity comes you feel you have to take it no matter what and even though it feels shit i keep reasurring myself its gonna get better. But right im not feeling any evidence of it 'getting better'. Maybe i should quit while im ahead, maybe this is just my luck... right first blog kinda interesting to spill my life story in a paragraph.. Reply, comment :)