26th July- Is this it?

So im coming to a conclusion NO man will treat me like im a decent girl or like me for who i am.. harsh on my self buts its so true. Ive been looking back on the guys i have been seeing or have gone in a relationship with and ive never had a real connection with them or felt like this will go somewhere. Your probably thinking your 16! You have so long to figure out your relationships and what guy 'floats your boat' but in this present moment in time i feel so far away from finding that guy.

Im gonna be one of those old crazy cat lady's who has no one great. I don't ask for much all i want is someone who is kind, maybe reasonably good looking and talkative that's it! Im not asking for a miracle! Every guy i seemed to be interested in there not interested in me but yet they text me and they want to see me.. confused? I definitely  am. I would love for guys to be a little bit more straight up about there feelings so you don't get ditched knowing that you were lead on and tricked with emotion argh boys.

It does look like all i do i whine and moan about boys. But i am i teenage girl lets not forget. At the moment im kinda stuck in limbo im waiting for summer to be over so i can start 6th form, maybe that's a new start for me also new meat! Very sexist.. Also im waiting for my results to come through and if i don't get five C's then there will be no meat for me.. crap. I never felt so insanely bored in my life if i don't turn into a crazy old cat lady later in life im definitely gonna turn into one this summer if i don't do something!